[Verse 2: Camila & Dinah] Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted. he sat down in the media center during his free period, taking out the calculus homework he was just assigned the period before. as well as and that brings him here, hobbling up the stairs. he tasted like mint and earl gray tea, and he smelled like fresh linen. fighting with him was like Work Search: his expression was empty as he stared ahead, his body curling in on itself on instinct. Please consider turning it on! Notes: (See the end of the chapter for notes .) yeah, he spat out. it's not that i think you don't love me, you know i would do anything for you." alex looked up through his eyelashes, his eyes wet and shiny. trying to know somebody you've never met Its only rational to stop whatever theyre doing, but what if someone helped Tony realize that he may have feelings as well? now youre crying, are you serious? forever, henry confirmed, and always., READ THIS LISTENING TO LOOK AFTER YOU - THE FRAY!!! Summary: 5 times alex was rejected the touch he needed + 1 time henry gave it to him. henry would hate him. Ending so suddenly. "i know. he was now aware of his body shaking and the tears rolling down his cheeks. Please consider turning it on! tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Alex Claremont-Diaz & June Claremont-Diaz, Alex Claremont-Diaz/Original Male Character(s), Alex Claremont-Diaz Loves Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor, Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor Loves Alex Claremont-Diaz, Married Alex Claremont-Diaz/Henry Fox-Mountchristen-Windsor. enjoy!! im not the best with love either, i was raised in a loveless household. he let out a small cry, sounding almost like an injured puppy. "you were not asking for it. he wasnt sure if he was being honest. just as quickly as he got there, he felt himself get pulled off, falling to the ground. he looked around briefly for liam, but instead he was greeted by a girl, he saw by the juniors days ago. im not mad per se, i just would have never said any of this stuff to you. because if so, yes alex. she didnt stop. go to sleep alex.. left kudos on this work! he cocooned himself in his blankets, the energy of his sobs tiring him out, and carrying him off to sleep. he knew they talked about him a lot, but he usually initiated the conversations and they would just go from there. see, you know i love you, and i cant believe you would ever doubt me about that. tommy was tall, taller than alex, (who wasnt) with fluffy brown hair, soft brown eyes, with multiple piercings. he heard the door to his room close gently, and the sound of heavy footsteps move down the stairs. before he knew it he was standing right in front of liam. it hurts me and makes me feel bad that you think like that. it just feels likeit feels like you just dont really care about me; like youre using me, his voice hushed, practically an inaudible whisper. Was right there in front of you. Forgetting him was like trying to know somebody you've never met. once he saw his dad make his way towards the front door saying something along the lines of picking up his bags tomorrow while the kids are at school, he bolted up, running to meet his dad at the door. okay, we always talk about you, and its always about your problems. touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you; memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song; fighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing there's no right answer; regretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strong [x&x] where he made new friends, and he only got minimal amounts of homework compared to june, and he could stay up until 9 oclock watching television. you cannot possibly be getting upset over this! dont touch me. losing him was blue like i've never known liam always claimed he just wasnt ready yet but alex did not believe he would ever be ready. "don't. don't touch me. A C#m B Burning it was red! no. youalways do this! alex and tommy had been going back and forth with each other for at least ten minutes. we arent exclusive, or dating. why? as soon as she got there she went off on a tangent about how horrible her day was. touching him was like but he just couldnt stop. Work Search: after that the rest of the names called went by relatively fast. "don't. don't touch me. youve been doing such big things and i understand its going to take up some more time. [Verse 1: Ally & Normani]Loving him is like driving a new MaseratiDown a dead-end streetFaster than the wind, passionate as sinEnding so suddenlyLoving him is like trying to change your mindOnce youre already flying through the free fallLike the colors in autumn, so brightJust before they lose it all, [Chorus: All & Lauren]Losing him was blue like Id never knownMissing him was dark grey, all aloneForgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never metBut loving him was red, red, redBut loving him was red, red, redBut loving him was red, red, red, red, red, red, [Verse 2: Camila & Dinah]Touching him was like realizing all you ever wantedWas right there in front of youMemorizing him was as easy as knowingAll the words to your old favorite songFighting with him was like trying to solve a crosswordAnd realizing theres no right answerRegretting him was like wishing you never found outThat love could be that strong, [Chorus: All & Lauren]Losing him was blue like Id never knownMissing him was dark grey, all aloneForgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never metBut loving him was red, red, redBut loving him was red, red, redOohhh burning red, red, red, red, red, red, [Bridge: Camila & [Normani] & (Lauren) & Dinah & {Ally} & All]Remembering him comes in flashbacks {flashbacks} [and echoes](Tell myself its time now) time now, gotta let go{But moving on from} him is impossibleWhen I still see it all in {my head}, [Chorus: Lauren & All & (Ally)]Losing him was blue like Id never knownMissing him was dark grey, all aloneForgetting him was like trying to know somebody (you never met)But loving him was red, red, red (was red)But loving him was red, red, red (was red)But loving him was red, red, red, red, red, red (red red), [Outro: Ally & All]Loving him is like driving a new MaseratiDown a dead-end street. the barista practically giving alex sex eyes (he isnt exactly sure what that means, but hes sure thats what nora would call them.). the only feeling worse than lying about him and liam was the feeling of jordans lips on his in the next second. she was blabbing on about getting his number, or a date, or something? Please consider turning it on! henry- i thinki think we should get a divorce. alex really really did not know where these words were coming from. he stuck the side of his head close to the bars on the stair railing trying to listen in. You know he's an all or nothing kind of guy." "I.. he just couldnt help it, never getting the feeling of comfort in moments like these, and all he could do in turn is be angry at the world. continued until liam showed up and pulled jordan off him. all he wanted was for it to be a good day, he would have taken a decent day at best, but all he got was horrible. he was vaguely aware of the fact that he had been mumbling sorrys for the last 10 minutes, and he still was. Loving him was red. sure henry hugs him on a daily, and he holds alex when theyre sleeping, but its never like this. left kudos on this work! this character is very much based on someone from my real life, so yeah, enjoy!! the barista practically giving alex sex eyes (he isnt exactly sure what that means, but hes sure thats what nora would call them.). An annotation cannot contain another annotation. 95 guests when ellen and oscars fights first started, alex was still so young. he was almost sure he did. i love you so bloody much it hurts. alex had dumped so much on him at once he didnt know how to process it. if alex didnt feel the pleasure he felt he should have in this moment, he doesnt tell anyone. he jumped into liams arms, virtually knocking him over, WE DID IT! for most of the names called he zoned out, just barely making out the syllables coming out of his principles mouth, but once he heard liams name he was suddenly self aware. being bibeing who i am- its so important to me and who i am, and by hiding who im with, it feels like im losing that part of me, he took a deep breath, tears threatening to fall from his eyes, and i just cant do it anymore. 4. liam it was hopeless for them. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. hi, is this seat taken? alex didnt even get a second to respond before she continued, im jordan, we have english together. he truly did not care about the girl sitting in front of him, all he really cared about was finding liam. he let a few of his tears fall, abruptly looking away, violently wiping at his eyes. go to sleep alex.. im so sorry, i dont mean to make you feel bad. While we've done our best to make the core functionality of this site accessible without javascript, it will work better with it enabled. i guess im just worried, but im sorry. But I'm assuming he couldn't keep going because it's not what he really wanted. i messed up, his voice a whisper, i got scared because youve been so so good to me lately but i've beensuch a bad husband. i love you sweetheart, he smiled, but quickly turned to a frown when tommy pulled away from his touch, let me show you, please. but thats not true. he jumped into liams arms, virtually knocking him over, WE DID IT! but his rambling was promptly cut off and he was snapped out of his daze by the sharp tone in junes voice. the first day of senior year. one second he was thinking about the barista, and then the next moment he was thinking about how henry would hate him for it. you cannot possibly think that thats true, because youre so so important to me. liam reached his arm out to try and grab alexs shoulder but he abruptly thrust his body backward, practically falling on his back. and its so much easier to not let it all happen to me, and trying to leave you was so selfish of me, but its so much easier. easy as knowing all the words to your own favorite song henrys eyes shot up, the happiness in them quickly replaced with worry once he saw alexs drooped frame. im not the best with love either, i was raised in a loveless household. When Steve and Tony casually exchanged handjobs because they couldn't sleep, they thought it would be one-time only. what hes missed goes all the way back to when he was too young to even think for himself. which was definitely way to fast. 15-jun-2021 - CARMELINA (@likemilknhoney) added a photo to their Instagram account: "Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him" he let the feeling of grief overtake him until he was able to push himself up and onto his bed. 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Please consider turning it on! forever, henry confirmed, and always., READ THIS LISTENING TO LOOK AFTER YOU - THE FRAY!!! you did not deserve this, at all. forgetting him was like he didnt care about that right now. sorry yeah actually- im saving it for a friend, he mumbled, looking back down at the table. im so sorry. 5. tommy i know. i would have never wanted you to feel like this. he pushed it aside and went on with the rest of the day as it shouldve gone. alex looked into his eyes, the joy in his eyes from before now replaced with shame. hes assuming he said something because thats what henry did. All the words to your old favorite song. he wasnt sure if he was being honest. it was a rather warm fall day, and alex had just gotten back from what felt like the longest day ever. what? why? he wanted to be happy with his boyfriend for once, sue him. Touching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of you Memorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite song Fighting with. alex and his long term boyfriend in college. alex melted into the kiss for a moment, pulling away when henry did. just talk to me.. alex stood in the middle of junes room, shivering, with his clothes dripping rainwater all over the light purple carpet. driving a new masareti down a dead end street, T-Swizzle Lyrics provided by SongLyrics.com. it was 10:47. way past the time he shouldve been in bed and asleep, but through the hushed shouts coming from the kitchen and junes sobs next door, sleep just seemed impossible to him. he let a few of his tears fall, abruptly looking away, violently wiping at his eyes. being bibeing who i am- it . although it was obvious they had something special, liam wasnt out yet, and they could only meet in secrecy. Note: When you embed the widget in your site, it will match your site's styles (CSS). 5. tommy tip: katekyou "alternate universe" sort:>words, 1. ellen and oscar he tasted like mint and earl gray tea, and he smelled like fresh linen. he looked down at where his arms were tightly wrapped around his chest, wishing june would just reach out and pull him into a hug. the moment we have all been waiting for. no you didnt, we can simply push them back an hour, or reschedule them to tomorrow. are you single? he inwardly cringed at the question. he immediately leapt off the stage, pushing his way through the crowds of people, taking as large of steps as he could to make it over there. alex has a horrible day at school. do youEVERthink of anyone besides yourself? but then the tears never came. it was uncomfortable and left an uneasy feeling in alexs stomach. he looked around briefly for liam, but instead he was greeted by a girl, he saw by the juniors days ago. he couldnt tell henry. that happened to be one of the first things he noticed about him. 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